The things we left behind. As the situation worsens, I have been desperately clinging onto faith as I know that I cannot do this on my own. It can be hard to keep my spirits up and pretend that I will be alright. Spending the weekend away during Easter week was probably the best decision that I had made, it gave me a glimmer of spark, but upon returning, I am left with the same empty feeling that on the horizon-darker days are looming ahead.
The gospel opens by saying, “On the evening of that first day of the week, when the doors were locked, where the disciples were, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood in their midst and said to them, “Peace be with you.”
When he had said this, he showed them his hands and his side. The disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I send you.” And when he had said this, he breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. Whose sins you forgive are forgiven them, and whose sins you retain are retained.”
Thomas, called Didymus, one of the Twelve, was not with them when Jesus came.
So the other disciples said to him, “We have seen the Lord.” But he said to them,
“Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands and put my finger into the nailmarks and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”
Now a week later his disciples were again inside and Thomas was with them.
Jesus came, although the doors were locked, and stood in their midst and said, “Peace be with you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and see my hands, and bring your hand and put it into my side, and do not be unbelieving, but believe.” Thomas answered and said to him, “My Lord and my God!”Jesus said to him, “Have you come to believe because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and have believed.”
Now Jesus did many other signs in the presence of his disciples that are not written in this book. But these are written that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that through this belief you may have life in his name (John 20-19-31).”
We have probably known that the disciple Thomas doubted very much of Jesus being resurrected and struggled with the reality of belief and unbelief. Faith is the same as we are deeply rooted in trusting God, both in good and bad times. It is a gift during our baptism that we are given faith so that we may believe.
It can be difficult to keep the faith especially when things do not go right, and we are on the receiving end of bad news after bad news, and we wonder when we might see that glimmer of good or joy again.
I have been praying and also trying to take one day at a time, and just take one moment at a time. It is delving into the unknown that scares people and me also, but I know by trusting in Jesus, I will make my way out with him.
Let us pray for the faith and joy to take up the challenges in life, that anything through Jesus is possible and that he conquered death and is risen! Through him, we can come back stronger and better persons in his time. God Bless!
Happy Easter! May we bring the joy to others and to keep touching the lives of others in our own way.
Written By: Darren Chan Keng Leong