I think I am falling in love

Not too long ago, I met a very beautiful young lady by the name of Charis – which in Greek means a person or object that has the power to give joy to the beholder or hearer. I was so mesmerized by her beauty, and was so captured by the very beauty and graciousness that emanated from her that I went speechless for a long while to come. And I just had that desire that burned in my heart to just want to speak with her, and get to know her. So we started talking, and sharing about everything that was going on in our lives; if every moment of my life could be spent with her, I should give the whole world for that! And I said to myself, “I think I am falling in love with Charis.” I shall try my best to describe who she is and/or what she possesses:

Compassionate heart – she listens tenderly to what I say, never quick to judge
Humble personality – she never once condemned me, even when I do or say stupid things
Available – she tries her best to be there for me (and I try to do same too)
Radiant – anyone around her cannot help but be uplifted and break into a smile or just feel happy
Intelligent = often enough she knows my thoughts even before I finish articulating them
Sweet – need I say more?

There is so much more I want to say, but words fail me, because when one is in love, no number of words for the Beloved, nor are many words necessary. Indeed, I find myself wanting to walk closer and build a firm relationship with Charis. Trying to know her has not been easy, though, I have to admit, but I am trying to be faithful each moment and each day.

So who is Charis you ask? She is none other than the Spouse of JC. 🙂 Happy Valentine’s day (1 week in advance) peeps!

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To know someone…

It struck me today, how often we like to engage in intellectual debates, rationalizing about God, which seems to be a tad overdone these days – and don’t get me wrong, I’m all for intellectual debates and rigorous rationalizing, I’m an engineer and I like good, sound reasoning.

I’d like to draw the analogy with falling in love with that special someone. When we fall in love with that someone, what draws us is the beauty of the person – how pretty she is, what peculiarities that really catch our attention and captivates me, and the like. I then proceed to finding out more about this person, who her friends are, where she stays, her essential biodata, what she likes to eat, what flowers she likes, etc… But I would never dream of stopping at this stage, I’d like to go further – I want to KNOW this person. How can I do that? The only way is through the heart – by talking to her, by starting a conversation with her, by taking her out on dates, to really know WHO she is. I could never hope to know who she is just simply by finding out all the information ABOUT her. No matter how good the information is – her height given to the greatest possible accuracy/precision; her external features described in the most flowery words; a perfect life-sized portrait of her. All these are good and well, for starters, but they are NOT her. I am really interested in getting to know Ms. Special-Someone.

And so it is with knowing God. We can have endless debates and rigorous intellectual debates about God, and who God is – again I say, these are good and important – but what is the point? We want to KNOW WHO God is, and in order to do that, we need to have a “HTHT” (Heart-To-Heart-Talk) type of relationship with him. Then, and only then, will the intellectual reasoning be of any real consequence, only then, would they strengthen the relationship.

In short, get to the “heart” of the matter and then combine the heart and head to build that relationship with God!

I know I am on the right path….

I know I am on the right path because God has shown his mighty hand at work in my life so far through the many experiences in my life. In particular when I began to take my faith seriously and when I was trying to return to him like the prodigal son, I felt His love for me as a personal God, not an angry God.

This is the right path on the life of service for others. To be asked to give up something precious and dear to me, like a relationship that was certainly going to bear fruit in time, in order to take the road less travelled by. I have often wondered, “What if I had not been on this road less travelled by?” But this only gives me more anxieties and worries, more questions than answers. The options of “what-if” are my good plans that I’ve worked out to mathematical precision, but with the coldness that lacks joy.

The road less travelled by indeed has not been easy, filled with tears, pained “yes’s” and hard work. But they now fill me with great satisfaction and great joy. I may not now have absolute certainty,  but I have the Absolute on my side and the center of my focus – the North star to lead me home.